Time flies when......

Time flies when your having fun is the typical response but I have to say that I have just been busy!!   Well there was some fun in there.   We have had 3 family fun days.  Family fun day for us is when we go out and do something super fun and don't worry about chores, what we eat, or just the basic rules of everyday life.  This has come to life for us cuz my wonderful little girl goes to her dad's house once a month and since he doesn't see her very much they try to pack in as much fun filled, junk food eating, no cleaning room time as possible and my DD told me one time when she came home that her step mom is the "fun" parent cuz she never yells at her.  I try not to take it personal but DAMN that one kind of stung......but you know they don't have to deal with a 7year old every day who doesn't like to clean her room and tries her hardest to get out of homework.  So my mom suggested that we implant at least one day a month to dedicate to having fun and throwing the rules out the door.  It's been a really good decision and I feel that it is actually more special for her cuz it's a treat instead of what is expected.  So any ways my point was that we have had some fun this last month.      Other than that I have started a long term sub position working in the special ed department of my DD school. As you may or may not know I am a teacher who is out of work and have been looking for the last 2yrs ......so this is a huge break through for me.  Not only that I actually have work every day and don't have to wonder if I need to get up and actually have a job.  This position is going to last until the end of the school year....YAY!!!

So another thing is that I had an appt with my RE and have started treatment.  I did 5mgs femara cd3-7 and had my u/s cd12 and had two follies one that was 17.5mm and another that was 14.5mm.  She thought that I would O over the weekend but it actually took almost a week to O!!  I didn't end up doing the trigger shot that my RE rx'd since I normally O on my own and I am very disappointed about that.  I also think that I should have gone ahead with the trigger since it took so much longer to O than expected.  So if I get a bfn this cycle I am going to be talking to my RE about upping my femara to 7.5mgs and adding the trigger regardless of the fact that I seem to O on my own.  I really really really really really want this cycle to work but as usual I just don't know if it will.....I think that over 2.5yrs of bfns has ruined me for that optimism that I once felt.  I am 5dpo and will probably start testing around 9dpo cuz I desperately want to be one of those women who get an early bfp!!  haha....unlikely I know but I like to torture myself.    So that is my update for know.  Will try not to wait so long to update and hopefully next time I will have some exciting news.